Weight Loss Art

Now, I've reached my 10% milestone--28#! My exercising is stepping up too. 1600 reps in 30 minutes. I do at LEAST 30 min. on the eliptical 5 times per week. I'm feeling better everyday. Weight Watchers is the way to go. Only 65# to go.
The complicated stuff about why I feel the need to lose. It seems as though my BIGGEST motivator is how people think of me. The mean things people say to a fat person stick with that person for all time. Whether anyone realizes it or not. I remember my sister Terry saying to me while we were playing Canasta in 1994. We were sitting at a dining room table in the condo they rented at Lake Occachobee, FL. Her husband, Phil, Terry and I were playing. I said something like it isn't over thil the fat lady sings and she smirked and said she was waiting for me to sing. Long forgotten by Terry, it sticks with me. My Dad, ashamed to introduce me to his work buddies when walking downtown Galesburg about 1980. We were standing in front of Nyman's Jewelry Store on Prairie Street and he stood and talked with his friend for 10 minutes anyhow and not one second of recognition but obvious body language demonstrasting shame at his association with me. And there are hundreds of more stories. Going with my mom to visit her friends in Victoria, IL. while visiting the grave of my father. The crippled man in the wheelchair who was a friend of my moms said he could not tell that I was Verna's daughter because I must 2-3 times her size. This is how he greeted me at the his door upon entering his home.

I had a cousin named Beulah who was huge. Maybe 350#. Beulah lived on a farm with her husband and daughter. She was the BEST cook and baker ever!!! Whenever I saw her she was so beautiful. Hair coiffed, makeup, girdle, nylons, body-tight pretty dress, heels. But when she sat and walked, while graceful, I can now see that she was physically in tremendous pain. Sitting with her legs crossed at the ankles, knees tightly together. It takes strenghth and whatever else to put that image out there when big and bulky. Beulah, I love you .

So now I am on my journey. Successfully!!!! I hope to go on a cruise in December with Linda. 10 days. I will continue on my exercise regimine and eat healthfully. I will swim and be in a suit and be perfectly at ease. I love my life now.

In the winter time I want to get a new Fishermans cable knit sweater to wear twith beautiful jeans. Last week Linda and I went through our closets and took a few hundred items to the Salcation Army.

I'm soon to be done being FAT!